Sep 2015 17

Tomorrow's my 23rd birthday and every year I grow older it seems I grow wiser. Realizing the world happens over and over again nothing will ever change. There will never be love or happiness for me in this place I'm in. I don't have family anywhere else to take off to and start a new life somewhere different. I've lived in this same house my whole life with these same people doing the same exact things all 22 years of my existence. I was a straight A student until 9th grade when I thought I met the one. So I'd start skipping school to be with him. We'd drink and blank out every night. I don't remember most nights. Sometimes I remember the punching, the getting kicked, the choking. His friends raped me. He told me it was my fault. Now 11 years later most of them are in prison. I'm raising 2 children on my own with no help from either one of their dad's. I don't make enough at my job but there aren't many jobs where I live. I'm too scared to move away alone with my two children. I think of suicide as an option on a daily basis. My one goal now is to wait for my oldests father to get out of prison so we can move away together but I'm afraid hell just start beating me again and may even put the children in harm too. Is there any place that'll help me find a place till I can get on my own feet? Maybe somewhere religious so I can stay away from the horrible people since that's all I've ever seemed to attract? Can anyone help us? Before I give up on this world and get the balls to travel to the next?

[by Anon on Thu September 17, 2015 04:26:56 pm]
9 years not 11.

[by Emberlynn on Mon July 25, 2016 03:35:47 am]
Knwogedle wants to be free, just like these articles!

[by Eagle on Mon July 25, 2016 08:47:58 am]
At last! Someone with the insight to solve the preolbm!

[by Joni on Tue July 26, 2016 09:02:26 pm]
The accident of finding this post has brtgeienhd my day

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