Jul 2010 30
Fri July 30, 2010 11:42:36 am
I think my parents emotionally abuse me. I have no faith in them, and no matter what I do I don't think i'll ever please them. When I do something small, like going to get some lunch without letting them know, they express the most rage as if I did the worst thing ever. They call me names such as "liar" and "disobedient", and it makes me feel worthless. I get good grades in school, get involved in activities that look good just to please them, and they shrug like they don't care. I can't tell them anything about my friends, or what we laugh about or talk about without worrying they'll get really mad, even though I know that I don't do anything. I'm constantly sneaking around them, even though I don't do anything that bad, just because I don't have faith in them letting me do ANYTHING. Whenever I ask them if I can go out with a friend to the movies or to dinner they always try to start fights with me, and they try to find something I do wrong to stop me from going. And I find that apart from school, the only activities I'm allowed to do are ones THEY'RE at. I feel like I'm handcuffed to them, and I just want my freedom. I try to tell them that, but they're always interrupting me, or counteracting everything I say instead of listening to me and try to understand why I feel that way. I feel trapped and I don't know what to do, because I'm still a teenager and I love them but I can't handle this anymore. Because of their treatment, especially by my short-tempered mother, I started to cut myself. They noticed some of my wounds and asked and I told them it was because of stress, and rather then comfort me they just ask "What is there for you to stress out about? You have nothing to be stressed out about." And the thing that hurts the most is that at the end of the day, they think I'm just sensitive and overly emotional. Sometimes I think they're right, but I think I know the difference from being a crybaby and being depressed, and I feel depressed.
Fri July 30, 2010 12:36:43 pm]
I am so sorry. Depending on how old you are, and where you live you can get emancipated. If you have a job, you can get your own apartment, or if you have a friend or family member you can stay with. You need to show them that you can live dependentaly with out you, and they are the cause of your pain.