Nov 2013 03

All but one. It's far too dull to do any real damage and tonight I really f**king need it. I've been clean for three months, but tonight is one of those nights where every memory is a nightmare and sleep isn't coming to my rescue. I keep replaying every single physical touch between you and I, when we held hands, when you rested your head on my shoulder, when we fell asleep for the briefest amount of time on your mother's couch, when we danced, albeit haphazardly. Over and over and over again. And I wonder if I meant anything to you, ever, but especially in those moments. Those moments were pure bliss for me and I never wanted them to end but did they, did I mean anything to you? Now I'm just angry at you and angry at me, and I feel so torn up inside and I can't make that pain visible on the outside like I so very badly want to. I'm just trying to get some sleep but even there I know I'll find you, I know I'll wake up sweaty and crying again, I know cause it's been two weeks of the same s**t. Things change, people leave, but I did and still do only want you.

[by Anon on Mon November 11, 2013 06:45:16 pm]
Dont cut. Ever. Everytime you cut misery wins

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There is a critical shortage of inoatmfrive articles like this.

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I guess finding useful, reliable inmtifaoron on the internet isn't hopeless after all.

[by Sagar on Tue July 26, 2016 08:59:03 pm]
This was so helpful and easy! Do you have any areitlcs on rehab?

[by Bono on Wed July 27, 2016 04:25:25 am]
I much prefer intaomrfive articles like this to that high brow literature.

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