Sep 2009 12
Sat September 12, 2009 08:12:04 am
I'm married, have three kids, and living a quiet, not so stressful, pretty lonely existence. I feel that I have a hole in my life that only Khaled can fill. I miss him and think of him many times throughout the day. I want to call him, to hear his voice, tell him of the things we could do, should do. His wife is a jerk, treating him horrible when he's nothing but amazing. My husband is an a**hole, completely keeping me out of his loop. I have no idea what is going on in his world. Khaled opens up to me. He tells me hows he's feeling, he tells me jokes, he treats me human. I miss him terribly. I wish there was a way to have him, all of him for myself, and at the same time, balance the life I already have. I could never do anything to jeopardize my children's normal lives. I don't want to hurt my husband, or leave him, I respect him too much. But he treats me awful, sometimes calling me names, being rude and inhumane to my thoughts and feelings. I don't know how I would do it. How could I? I love him so much, I want to hug him, I want to stroke his face and his c*ck. I just wish it was easier and less sinful to be with such an amazing man, who isn't my husband.