Aug 2012 27
Mon August 27, 2012 07:23:49 pm
I have social anxiety with a mix of a special kind of bi polar. Most bi polar people have changes that last for months, I switch moods every few hours. My family and I have accepted this throughout the years and yet no matter how much my mother pleads she understands she really doesn't. She tells me since I don't have a "regular kind of Bipolar" I don't have hard feelings to deal with, which is not true in my, or my shrinks eyes. Every day is challange for me, a challange she greaty underestimates. IF I start out in a great mood she is happy and she gets so suddenly srpised that by the end of the day I'm tottaly diffrent. Now what is her soultion to my ever chaning brain chemicals? Punishing me. Yes you read that right, she punsihs me for something I hae no control over. I have tried countless meds, everything under the rainbow and still my moods can go wacky at any moment! It's not a excuse I just really can't control it sometimes and yet because of me "not behaving" (aka me starting off in a good mood and then being sad) I either get no computer for a week, or not allowed to see friends for a month! Also I should mention hat "good mood she loves" isn't a good mood, but what is commonly known as the "manic " stage of Bi polar.
Sat September 1, 2012 09:45:30 pm]
I'm sorry about your mother. Do you have any bi polar resources you can use to help your mother understand what's happening to you? Maybe somebody to talk to? I'm sure you could find someone who could help you with your mom. x