Aug 2010 30

Okay, so 3 years ago I was in a car wreck. I ended up having a slipped disc in my back (which I still have to this day) and I had to have my knee operated on (I'm still wearing a knee brace for support since my knee cap is slipping out of place again).

I have low blood pressure, so I started having black outs riiiight after I started to get close with recovering after the surgery. I would fall to the ground and everything when I would stand up. Everytime the sun would even slightly get in my eyes, my head would cramp up and hurt like hell..

My back is still sore, and I still am not healed, and I still can't do sh*t. I'm only almost 15. I'm supposed to be having fun and hanging out with people, not being held up all the time because I can't heal because of some a**hole who hit the back of my mom's car because he "wasn't paying attention" since he was "changing his CD" in his car. F*ck you, dude.

Now my blackouts are getting worse again. I've been having nightmares. I'm homeschooled so I don't have many friends, and I only have one who lives in Germany that I actually trust.

I feel like sh*t all the time. And this is just about my medical stuff. I didn't even say anything about my parents, my mom getting sick with leukemia, my dad and I's relationship, (not much about) how the lack of friends effects me, how I've finally shut myself off from almost everyone and I just want to stay asleep forever.

I'm so stressed. I hate it..

[by RPZN on Mon September 6, 2010 04:39:25 pm]
Sorry to hear that kiddo. I hope everything works out for you.

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