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Mon June 13, 2011 09:02:26 pm
I'm just so frustrated - I'm angry, but when I think long enough I feel like I could cry. I'm so tired of my wife just looking for one more thing I could do that will "make her happy"....it's so God damn frustrating! I feel like we've been working hard at things for a while and it really felt like things were getting better recently and tonight she gets upset about---too long to explain----and promptly goes to bed when me & the kids start watching true grit....sometimes i feel like i'm all alone in this deal....i don't know if venting helped. maybe if i knew some one read it, but right now i just feel more dejected and having "f*** it" thoughts run thru my head...i hate feeling this way....
Tue June 14, 2011 11:45:55 am]
Hang in there jr13281 - sounds like you're holding onto your end of the deal, and for the kids and your family, that's very admirable. Maybe she's just looking for excuses, maybe she feels wronged and wants you to "repay" her by doing things to make her happy, but either way, it's not working. She needs to be open, to communicate and tell you what's going on. Maybe if she won't say it to you, she can saw it to a stranger? Sometimes it's just easier. Have you thought of marriage counseling, she can always get things started by seeing someone first - sounds like she needs it more than you anyways.
Wed June 15, 2011 07:29:59 pm]
Thanks for the thoughts. We've been in counseling for about a year now and if anything that's sort of adding to the level of my frustration. Right now, I'm just pretty checked out & beginning to consider the realities of divorce. I'm tired of banging my head against the wall & the older I get the less tolerant I am of being around people I don't enjoy being around....
Wed June 15, 2011 07:34:49 pm]
One more thought if anyone has advice ---- how do you actually make the decision to just say "I'm done and want a divorce"?? It would be easier if her behavior were totally insane, how do you make that decision when you just don't want to try at the relationship any longer?? Been married for a long time so I have no reference point on this one. Thx for any thoughts.