Oct 2013 29
Tue October 29, 2013 09:44:17 pm
I dont want to do life anymore. I just feel like I can't win. I'm done with school, halfway through one semester of college and I'm f**king done I hate it. Everyone that I work with, my friends' parents all tell me to stick with it that college is the key to success, but it CAN'T be, there has to be another way. My own parents are actually really supportive of me not finishing school. I just don't want to disappoint my friend's parents though, they say they're so proud of me for working my way through school and that means a lot to me they're second family they really are they've always been there for me. But college cant be the answer for everyone, it can't be. I just want this semester to be over, I want this year to be over. Work is bringing me down too, I work in a welding shop and the only reason I took the job was to learn how to weld, and I've learned a little bit, but the bosses won't give me a chance to advance even though I work hard for them, harder than anyone else there, I'm literally always doing something, even if it's only sweeping I'm never just standing around. So now I have to find another job where they'll actually move me up, where they actually reward hard work, but I don't know when I'll find time to job hunt and I don't know where to look, the only other job i've had was in a restaurant and I'm not going back to that. I'm freaking out because I'm almost 20 and I have exactly less than 0% of my s**t together, and when I turn 20 people will expect me to KNOW things and that's scary. My family is moving to a different country and I'm going with them in six months and that's not enough time for me to get any real skills and its not enough time for me to get a degree so I'm afraid that I'll start over again at the bottom there too. The country that we're moving to doesn't speak english so I have to learn another language, and I'll probably never see my friends again. I'm just really stressed out and scared and I can't think of anything that I can do about it. I try to make the right choices for the right reasons, but I'm so lost.
Tue October 29, 2013 09:52:03 pm]
I just want to be enough for everyone, know I've made them proud
Sat November 2, 2013 01:41:44 am]
Take a deep breathe and relax. Where I'm coming from, most 20-year-olds still don't know what they're doing and are still in school.
One thing I've learned over the past few months is: leaving school and finding a job in something you actually like can pay off and can be worth it. What do you really want to do? Anything in particular you're gravitating towards?
I met this girl (er, young woman) the other day who's worked seven years at her job in television and worked her way up from sitting in the lobby of the company to interning to assignment desk to writer to research etc. to finally a news anchor (she's only 27 and she quit school at 20 to find a job). It can take a while but if you're ambitious and passionate enough you'll get there.
You're only 19, relax. I'm 19 working my way through school without a clue of what I'm going to do after I graduate. As long as your parents support you, you shouldn't worry what your friend's parents think of you. Do what's right for you. If you feel like you've made the wrong move leaving school, then go back. There's no shame in doing that. You're still so young to make mistakes and go back and fix them. All of my school friends are mid-20s to early 30s. No judgements there.
Mon July 25, 2016 01:52:03 am]
Great post with lots of imprntaot stuff.
Mon July 25, 2016 08:44:41 am]
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Tue July 26, 2016 08:59:03 pm]
At last, soeonme comes up with the "right" answer!
Wed July 27, 2016 04:25:14 am]
Furrealz? That's maosulrevly good to know.